Corporate Christ: Lives Less Ordinary

Corporate ChristLGBT musician and author Corporate Christ releases a documentary he made with Kalto Films about life growing up with depression and Schizophrenia. He was bullied as a teenager, developed a drug problem and ended up with Ulcerative Colitis, a bowel disease that nearly killed him, Corporate Christ explains how he took strength by the experiences he went through rather than despair at his endless misfortune.

The Point Of Depression

There has been a great deal of speculation about the evolutionary significance and origins of depression. What selective advantage does it confer?

Does it allow the patient to concentrate on complex and important problems? Is it a type of pain that, like physical pain, causes us to pull back from danger? Is it a type of behavioral quarantine, causing us to hole up in a safe place while dangers stalk around outside? Perhaps it reduces our libido and our appetite for social interaction in order to stop us getting or giving infectious disease? Is it a simple signal that we need help? Is it a sort of threat to others in our community that, unless they do something to help us, they will have a liability in their midst that could endanger them? Is it a sort of fuse, switching us off and causing us to back down when we are outgunned – so saving us from risky and costly conflicts with our peers?

These suggestions, and the many others in the literature, may seem insulting and insensitive. Isn’t it like asking the point of a disabling road traffic accident?

Well, possibly. But much disease is the result of the malignant transformation or manifestation of a physiological response that is usually useful. Auto-immune illness and allergy, for instance, are damaging consequences of facilities without which we would be dead. So the desire to squeeze depression into the neo-Darwinian paradigm is not necessarily misconceived. What is misconceived, I suggest, is the sheer fancifulness of many of these suggested explanations. Their authors are too clever, ingenious, and imaginative.

Here’s an alternative suggestion, which at least has the advantage of not being so smart.

We need to start by deciding what depression really is. It is, I suggest, an ontological disorder. The main pathology in depression is the erosion or truncation of the Self. Depression robs us of the characteristics that make us us. ‘She’s not herself’, we’ll shrewdly say. The job of a psychiatrist is to ‘put the patient back in their right mind’. Depression makes us sit all day in our bedrooms, facing the wall: cutting ourselves off from all the relationships which define us and make our lives our lives. And if the depression isn’t treated, the threat to the Self can become desperately dangerous. We might annihilate the Self with razor blades or by jumping off a bridge.

Usually, though, the danger isn’t mortal. Most manifestations of depression, for most of us, most of the time, are premonitory signs. They tell us that the Self is vulnerable: that it needs some urgent TLC – or else.

Perhaps it doesn’t need to be stated (it’s really tautological), but of course a sense of Self is vital to our biological survival (which is Darwin’s main interest). It’s my sense of Self that makes me compete for a mate; which makes me look for my next meal; which makes me avoid harming myself.

So: most of the time, depression is acting to preserve the self. It doesn’t just cause us to run away from nasty stressors, as some of the other theories suggest. It acts too as a health education program, teaching us about effective therapies. Once you’ve had a small dose of depression, you recognize the symptoms next time, and reach more quickly for the remedy (whether it’s pills, a holiday, a walk in the sunshine, or a massive dose of friendship).

Depression, then, is a thief of Self which has been cunningly recruited by evolution to frustrate its own burglarious project.

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‘Killer Nanny’ Filmed Waving Child’s Severed Head Was ‘Haunted By Voices’ And ‘Kept Schizophrenia A Secret’

Warning this video may upset/offend

4 year old victimFamily members of Moscow’s ‘killer nanny’ said she ‘kept her schizophrenia a secret’ and ‘were shocked but not surprised’ that she took part in such a gruesome act.

In scenes that rocked the world on Monday, a black-clad woman was filmed walking the street holding on to a four-year-old girl’s severed head, threatening to “blow everyone up”.

Witnesses say Gyulchekhra Bobokulova, 38, was shouting “Allahu Akbar”, while pacing up and down outside a Moscow metro station in front of bewildered bystanders.

The mother-of-three was later detained by police for killing Nastya Meshcheryakova, who reportedly had learning disabilities.

The family of Bobokulova were interrogated by police the next day claiming she had been registered at a psychiatric clinic in Uzbekistan and tried kept her schizophrenia a secret, Daily Mail reports.

A police source in the ex-Soviet republic told the publication the parents of Bobokulova and her husband said they were “shocked with the cruel murder” but they “were not surprised” she did it.

“Everybody here knew Gyulchekhra. She was a strange woman, to put it mildly,” he said.

“Strange things often happened to her in spring time. Her parents watched her and tried to send her to the psychiatric clinic when spring came.”

The source also said she was officially registered as insane in 2000 and “her condition was gradually deteriorating”.

It is believed Gyulchekhra had schizophrenia for 15 years and tried to keep it a secret by never taking medical documents with her when applying for jobs.

The killer nanny then moved to Moscow where got the job as a nanny and only visited her three children, aged in their late teens and early 20s, during holidays.

When police interrogated the ‘killer nanny’ she told them she was “haunted by voices” before she decided to execute the child who had learning difficulties, LifeNews reports.

She also said her husband of 12 years “drove her mad” after he left her to be with another family.

The deranged woman also claims she was “kicked on to the streets and ” left to work around the clock”.

Only 16 hours after the shocking killing, the police source said she confessed to the crime and took police to the scene of the crime where she was reportedly cooperating.

In footage released by local media, Bobokulova can be seen in handcuffs as police escort her toward the burnt-out apartment.

She points to the entrance and block of apartments and took police up to the fifth-floor where she lived with the young girl’s family.

“I came here and took off my skirt, threw it in a rubbish bin. Got changed into what we wear to have prayer. A voice told me to wear so,” a police source claimed she said.

It was here she allegedly strangled the girl and severed her head off with a kitchen knife.

After the gruesome act, it is believed she left the child’s body in a cot and took only her head out on to the street before setting fire to the apartment and fleeing onto the street where she was later arrested.

Media reports said the nanny had looked after the girl like she was her own.

“I hate democracy. I am a terrorist. I want you dead,” Bobokulova shouted as she waved the head, according to footage broadcast by local television.

“You have become so hardened, you have eliminated so many of us. Look I am a suicide bomber, I will die, doomsday will come in a second,” she said in accented Russian.

Witness Alyona Kuratova told independent Dozhd TV that the woman was holding the head by its hair.

Kuratova described scenes of chaos, with police cars and ambulances arriving at the scene and some people yelling: “terror attack, terror attack.”

Another witness said the woman shouted that she would “kill everyone, blow up everyone.”

Some said the woman had paced up and down for some 20 minutes before she was detained near Oktyabrskoe Pole metro station.

“According to preliminary information, the child’s nanny… waited until the parents left the apartment with their elder child and, guided by unknown motives, killed the little one, set the apartment on fire and left the scene,” the Investigative Committee said.

Russians have in recent years seen all kinds of gruesome murders and attacks including the bombing of planes and the metro.

But the little girl’s murder sent shockwaves across Moscow, with many saying the woman had not been apprehended quickly enough and questioning the professionalism of police.

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Mentally Ill Often Want To Work, But Need Help With Support Services

mental-health-at-work-WPMental illnesses such as schizophrenia and severe cases of bipolar disorder are major sources of disability. They are listed among the top 10 causes of disability worldwide, despite that each affects less than 1 percent of the overall population. The primary reason for this alarming statistic is the cognitive impairment as a result of the disease.

Medications for schizophrenia have been able to control psychotic symptoms such as delusions and hallucinations. In fact, 65 percent of people with schizophrenia who take their medications have lasting control of their symptoms, and treatment of recurrences of bipolar illness with lithium is similarly successful. However, these medications have side effects and do not help with the cognitive changes in attention, memory and problem solving that affect schizophrenia and bipolar patients.

The largest cost item for schizophrenia and bipolar disorder is not medications, doctor’s visits or hospitalization. It is the indirect cost of not being able to work and support oneself or a family because of cognitive changes.

Cognitive impairments lead to major problems in someone’s ability to work and live independently. Only 10 percent of people with schizophrenia are working full time. The numbers are a little better for bipolar disorder, where the unemployment rate is 60 percent, but this is still a major problem. In many cases, the mental illness leads to unemployment, which leads directly to homelessness for patients and their families.

In addition, people who are unemployed typically do not have access to quality health insurance or may not have the money to make a co-payment if they are insured. Thus, unemployment leads to other consequences, such as not being able to afford necessary medications.

Yet insurance companies — particularly in Florida — are often reluctant to pay for the services that can assist patients with getting and keeping jobs, instead focusing on relapse and readmission to hospitals.

It is important for the public to realize that people with schizophrenia and bipolar want and need to work. Any assistance that can be provided, such as employers partnering with organizations trying to increase employment opportunities, makes a huge difference in the lives of patients and their families.


Philip Harvey, Ph.D., is director of Psychology at UHealth – the University of Miami Health System.


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We Choose Spouses Who Are Like Us, Right Down To Our Psychiatric Conditions

brain-circulation-110818-02We are more likely to choose mates who resemble us in everything from education to body type to physical attractiveness. Researchers in Sweden have now found that people with psychiatric disorders end up with people with the same condition far more often than chance alone would allow.

The team looked at more than 700,000 people in Sweden diagnosed with one of 11 different psychiatric disorders between 1973 and 2009, plus their partners.

Partners of people with diagnosed conditions were two to three times more likely to have a diagnosis themselves, compared to the partners of people without diagnoses. Furthermore, when a diagnosed person chose a diagnosed partner, it was likely to be someone with their same condition. This was particularly true in the case of schizophrenia, ADHD, and autism spectrum disorder.

Those patterns didn’t hold up for non-psychiatric conditions like Crohn’s disease or diabetes.
“Taken together, these results suggest that individuals with psychiatric diagnoses are mating—to a degree greater than would be expected by chance—with other diagnosed individuals,” lead study author Ashley Nordsletten, a psychologist at Karolinska Institute in Stockholm, told Scientific American.

The reason for these pairings isn’t totally clear. But the findings could help explain why disorders like schizophrenia persist, even when they lead to early mortality and decreased reproduction.

Geneticists looking at the prevalence of disorders assume that mating is random. But if people with certain conditions are drawn to each other, for reasons science can’t yet explain, then mating is a lot less random than those models assume.

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What To Do When You’re Caught in a Delusion

omag-lion-949x534Having some delusions lately. These delusions are primarily manifested in the notion that people I don’t know on the internet deeply care for me. That they love me. They post things on their social media accounts that are pretty ambiguous so sometimes it leads me to believe that they are sending messages to me this way. I’ve only ever asked one of them about it and they were more confused than I was so it occurred to me in that brief conversation that the reality of the way things are is much different than what I imagine it to be at some points.

That’s the thing about schizophrenia though, you can’t really ever trust the things your mind is telling you. Especially when it comes to interacting with other people.

I’ve lived with schizophrenia for almost ten years now and in that time I’ve gone through waves of paranoia and delusion that can last months. Usually though I’m able to break myself out of it.

Some people who are in my same boat may be wondering how to do that seeing as how delusions are a major symptom of our illness and things can get rather confusing rather fast when you’re under that fog.


The first and most important thing to do is to confront your delusion by asking someone about it. It could be a family member or a friend but most of the time a third-party observer who has no stake in your particular delusion can help tremendously in figuring out whether the things you think are happening are actually happening. If they’re not (which is the case most of the time) you can rest easy knowing that your mind doesn’t have absolute control over you and that the pressure of the imagined situation is negated.

If you’re feeling up to it, it may even help to ask the subject of your delusions what is going on. Granted this may be uncomfortable if you don’t know the person but hearing the truth straight from the horse’s mouth is an immediate delusion killer and can help you get a better grip on reality and learn from the particular instance of delusion. Yes it’ll be a strange and probably awkward conversation but knowing the truth about what’s going on is far more important than being embarrassed.

Another great tactic I use for combating delusion is leaving a situation altogether.

You may think about how you handled yourself for a while afterwards but instantly removing the pressure of a delusional situation is a great way of diffusing your nerves. Don’t feel guilty for having to leave either, it’s perfectly ok to take the steps you need to maintain control when you’re faced with one of your triggers.

You can work on the underlying response to these triggers later on in therapy so don’t worry if you need to leave a situation.

Your mental health is first and foremost the most important thing when you’re living with a mental illness and taking the steps you need to maintain control is nothing to be ashamed of.

Even if it’s awkward or embarrassing, you need to do what you need to do in order to maintain stability. Above all else just know that it’s ok, and this too shall pass.

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